Hello! I want to go ahead and post this while I can and before I forget. Christian is nursing right now on his way to dream land. :) I began to write this post a little earlier, but I had to put it on hold since Christian was wanting my full attention. So I gave him a bath, folded clothes while he played, and now I am holding while he sleeps. So maybe I can get this post done now. :)
Today is my brother's birthday! His name is James Greg and today he is 13 days old! I just can't believe he is 13 now! I remember so clearly when he was born and now he is a teenager. I'm sure that's exactly how I will feel with Christian. Well, I'm feeling that way now with him already being 6 months old.
I am the oldest of 6 children, and James Greg is the youngest. I considered myself his second mom growing up. :) I was eleven, almost twelve when he was born. Mama always called him her miracle baby since she almost lost him while pregnant. I love him so much and would call him my baby. I eventually had to stop though because it embarrassed him lol. But he will always be. He was seven when I moved away from home so I'm sure he doesn't have a ton of memories of me being there. It breaks my heart but our age difference makes it that way. I know now most of what he knows of me is what others tell him, and I hope they are telling him the truth. I don't want him growing hating me because they don't agree with how I live. I just live like a normal person, I don't smoke, drink, do drugs or anything like that. I just hope he doesn't think I am evil.
It has been awhile since I have talked to him since I don't have a phone that is long distance, but I really miss hearing his voice! Last time he talked to me on the phone he told me he missed me and that broke my heart. Being here in Florida is bittersweet. I love living here with my little family, but I also miss my family in Georgia, too. I don't get to see them much anymore so I always cherish anytime I see or talk to them. I don't think they understand how much I love them and miss them. But I do with all my heart!
James, if you ever read this I just want you to know I love you so much! More than I could ever express! You are my baby brother, and I am so proud of you. You have gone so far and done so well even with losing Mama at such a young age. That has always broken my heart and I have asked God why more times than I can count. We all still needed Mama, but especially you. You were her baby, she loved you so much! She babied you a little more knowing you were the last one. I know since you told me that you don't have many memories of Mama being healthy. And I'm sure as you get older, more memories will slip. I want you to know though that I am always here whenever you need someone to talk to. Between me and our siblings we will keep Mama's memories alive in you. If you ever want to talk about her or need help remembering, I am always here. I love you so much and I hope to talk to you soon!
James was always so cute growing up! He had nicknames for all of us, and I was
Duh-Duh. :) Whenever you would ask him his name, he would reply ME! :) He called horses Emily, whenever he saw one he would yell Emilys! He had such a cute way of talking, and he always put up with Carla and me playing house with him. :) He has always had a tender heart, and I love that about him.
I need to go ahead and end this post so Cody can use this computer. I am going to add some pictures of James that I got from his facebook since I personally don't have any recent ones. Hope everyone has a wonderful evening! And a very happy birthday to James!!!
Paige
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